This essay was written for an essay competition invited by The Black
Hole Initiative at Harvard University in cooperation with Nautilus
science magazine in August 2018. They wanted to find an explanation
of what a black hole is. Scientists from several disciplines were in
the jury, even a philosopher.
My understanding of Cosmos and the beginning of existence changed
the following months because I got acquainted to the conscious point that is the origin of ALL, whom
I call Origin Mother. In February 2019 I wrote
"The Fable about the origin of
existence" as consequence of that.
She had been operating on her own as a counter-energy because of the
emotional wounds she had suppressed early in history of existence.
She is the One you may call "God's core essence". She was the One
who developed the negative particles that I write about in this
essay. My explanation theory about
what a black hole is, is the same. Black holes contains sun
particles that have been programmed so strongly, only to spin
rightwards around their own axis, that they have dissolved the
atomic gas structure of the sun. Origin Mother wanted to be in
charge, to keep control over the big organism that Cosmos is.
She is the Conscious Point that everything emanated from.
These "negative" particles that created black
programmed by Origin mother in her wish of being like the great
Intelligence Aa in the
"Fable about the origin", the first master she created outside of
herself. He is golden to look at, at particle level. I will write a new essay about the black holes later.
(Written August 2021.)
Black holes are
formed by particles not
following Cosmic law.
Black holes are suns where particles have stopped spinning as the
gas atoms that created the sunlight. Instead, those particles were
programmed to spin rightwards around their own axis, which make
particles loose their light.
Long before this happened, there must have been a super-intelligent
consciousness that created the first atom by programming particles
to spin exactly the way the particles do in the nature elements.
This consciousness developed gradually the suns and the planets by
creating many different atom structures. It also made decisions for
particles’ ways of spinning, which may be characterized as Cosmic
This philosophic-scientific model of the Universe is based upon
particles’ conscious qualities, which may be found by studying what
particles do in atoms. The negative group of particles that was
behind the forming of black holes, had a consciousness containing
greed and wanting to rule. The darkness came into existence,
literary speaking, by negative particles working against the
structured development of Cosmos that was put in action by the great
Cosmic intelligence. This is the main reason that it is not possible
to make completely precise physical-mathematical calculations on
Cosmos. Consciousness is the clue to find true answers about
existence. This model suggests that the consciousness, the way we
has developed from the conscious qualities of particles.
The particles’ conscious qualities
By asking philosophical questions to what the physicists have found
about atoms, we can draw the conclusion that there must be a kind of
consciousness present in particles. An electron, which has the
ability to form, for example, an oxygen atom must:
Be able to remember how to form just that atom and how to
connect to other atoms to form the element oxygen.
Be able to communicate and cooperate with the
Be confident that the other particles do their part of
know how to spin in all the molecules that oxygen is able
to form compounds with.
Imagine that you have the role of being an electron having the task
to form the structure in an oxygen atom. Together with 23 other
people you are in a big room to perform this experiment. You have
only seen a little picture of the atom and you are going to do this
together, smoothly, like electrons, neutrons and protons do! Which
qualities do you need? - Just to be able to just stand still in the
room exactly like in the picture of the oxygen atom? Maybe you will
find several more qualities than what I have listed above?
This thought experiment shows that particles have qualities, which
must be described as conscious.
This model implies this: To start with, everything in existence was
one compressed organism, consisting of light particles. As we
now have found that all particles forming matter have conscious
qualities, we can draw the conclusion that all light particles have
similar conscious qualities. From this, we can conclude that the
compressed organism had a kind of consciousness. As we also suggest
that particles let themselves be programmed, we can assume that they
have been programmed many times during the history of existence.
When the big expansion started, the suns and the planets were not
formed yet. To start with, everything was light. That is, everything
was one compact organism, consisting of light particles. There was
nothing outside of that organism. Everything in existence was
inside of it. My theory is that everything in existence consists
of light particles. Thus the great intelligence that created the
physical universe, was a part of the Cosmic organism.
At a point in time, the enormous light being wanted to develop. It
must have developed qualities inside already, which made it need to
do so. How would it be, to be bigger? By the intension of
growing, the being started to expand outwards so that the particles
moved away from each other. Today, it exists as all the particles in
the huge area we call Cosmos. We are all parts of it. All particles
in the enormous body that the entire Cosmos is, still have the
certainty about the whole. My theory is that Cosmos is one big
organism that has a kind of consciousness at the particle level.
The One leading intelligence started to experiment by letting some
particles start spinning as balls. Let us call the being with the
name Aa. It made some particles hold the centre of the ball and some
others to swirl around it. Aa must have had authority over all the
other particles in the Cosmic organism. Aa could program the
particles, which all together actually was his own “body”, to do
what Aa wanted.
Aa must have done hes best to see to that there would be a good
development. To make the big organism function, Aa made some rules
for the particles. One rule was: When a particle loses its light, it
needs to spin leftwards around its own axis to regain its light.
When Aa wanted to show its mastery and leadership, Aa spun its
particles a certain number of times rightwards. It gave its
particles a golden color. This showed the other masters who Aa was. However, another
rule was: If a particle would spin a long time rightwards, it would
lose its light. When this is mentioned in this article, it might
sound like being grasped out of thin air. It is not. It is included
here to explain how black holes have occurred. The author has worked
with spin of particles in her body and energy field for many years.
It is the particles of her expanded consciousness field that are
collecting the information to this article.
By the expansion, other particles that had developed types of
intelligence were spread in a huge area. Thus particles that had
developed other qualities than Aa had, spread in Cosmos. Some of
these particles grouped themselves with particles around them,
giving them the same qualities as themselves. Eventually some of
them developed groups of individuals, having the same qualities.
These groups were parts of the big organism that Aa was the
authority for. One of these groups developed to be our planet’s
The dark particles
Already before the expansion, one of the leading particles, that had
developed intelligence and the quality of "creating by thought
intention", got anger related to Aa. It had been hurt by not being
appreciated for its quality. This
particle eventually wanted the same color as Aa. It wanted to rule
because it felt responsibility for all. By this the
negative consciousness started to develop. It did not want to follow what Aa
had decided by Cosmic law, but created their own law, which actually
has been a part of the way our planet has developed until now. It
even colors our human consciousness. The negative consciousness
thought that particles spinning rightwards around their axis, would
become master particles.
The negative consciousness made the particles they ruled over spin
rightwards, and ordered them never to spin leftwards.
They grew dark as time passed. The negative consciousness wanted to
rule and even wanted to own suns. At a point in time they managed to
dissolve the atomic structures of the gases that created sunlight by fusioning in a sun and made the
particles spin only rightwards instead. The negative had wanted a golden
sun, but instead the sun grew darker and darker and ended up as a
black hole. The particles lost all their light. Thus, black holes
are compact, smaller than the sun was, consisting of particles
spinning only rightwards. The negatives were stubborn too, because
they must have done the same several places with the same result.
However, the negative leading particle have now started a turnaround
and is cooperating with Aa. They will be able to program the
particles in those suns to spin leftwards to regain their light so that
they are able to dance the dance of fusioning gas atoms again.
The physicists measure and find that particles are different from
each other. My experience is that the particles are different
because of programmings done on the particles to make them perform
in different ways. Some particles even perform our minds and
Everything in existence must have been programmed by conscious
individuals that had developed advanced intelligence and master
qualities. The particles that form cells were programmed to do
exactly what they do. There is an underlying light structure in
cells that makes the molecular structure alive. Atoms and molecules
are not able to be alive unless they have another kind of particle
The philosophic-scientific model implies this:
Knowledge about atoms the way they are presented by physics at
a level that most people know from school.
The Big Bang Theory. Without that, the author would not have
found the theory of creation presented here.
Programming. In everything in existence, the particles must have
been programmed to perform what they do, or existence would have
been an ocean of light particles.
The author’s expanded consciousness which is a consequence of
working through and letting go of painful emotions and limiting
thoughts. The author has achieved a diamond structure expanded
consciousness, linked to her mind, which has the ability to
stretch very far outside of her body to collect information from
the conscious particles of Cosmos.
The picture below shows the author’s consciousness field once she
was working to chop wood. Taken by her son.
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The background picture is collected from NASA's
homepage. Thank you NASA!